Monday, May 14, 2012

why am i such a dork?


I say 'yes' to things I should not say yes to.

This week, for instance, I'm smack in the middle of organizing the food for our church's 50th anniversary dinner. Nevermind I'm solely responsible for the education of these children. Nevermind we're about to give in and just move in to the soccer complex. Nevermind I have no clean underwear for tomorrow. Nevermind we don't have groceries. Nevermind I have no business adding anything to our schedule at this point in our lives. I'm just going to go ahead and organize dinner for a whole bunch of people! Because that is such. a. great. idea!

Ridiculous. Someone please kick me in the head.

I'm trying to learn from this. I really am. It's hard to know when to say 'no' when it seems like your particular gifts are needed. I don't like to pass it off to someone else who I know it's going to likely burden. It feels like I'm saying here, you do this because I don't want to do this. But, I'm learning to trust God with what I can't do. To say 'no' when everyone else who has a lick of sense would say no.

So, guess what all that means. No posts for you!

Except more iPhone posts. Because I can at least take twenty minutes to get some iPhone pics up. Then the blog doesn't look so lonely and forlorn with a week old post date.

I dumped my phone again. Just so I'd have something for you.

Such love.

I had a very nice Mother's Day. My gift is always the same. I go out and buy my annuals. I love, love, love shopping for plants. Some women get a thrill out of buying shoes, I get spine tingles from a perfect shade of salmon geraniums to go beside my salvia.

And even more than I love buying them, I love planting them and watering them in.

Watering plants is just about one of the most relaxing things on earth.

We spent a lot of time outside this weekend. By Saturday night my eyes, all around my nose, and even around the outside of my mouth were tingly from the pollen assaults. Thank you, massive cottonwoods.

But, it was worth it. I think.

My iPhone was dead on Sunday, and I never charged it up. Not a single picture from Mother's Day! But, it was still a really sweet day. I woke up to a small crowd gathered around my bed with tart cherry jam on toast and coffee. Perfect. And all the children pitched their money in together to buy me a gift just from them this year. It was waiting for me on the kitchen table when I came down. A Twix bar and a Coke Zero. I felt so understood.

SweetP and Shug are sleeping in their new room now. As of last night. There's no door on the room, mind you, but they were beyond ready. We ordered a new bunkbed for them, and it was delivered last week. Sam was able to put it together after many hours of travail on Saturday evening. They really love it. Very fun.

Baby is getting TWO teeth. But, I don't have a picture of those, either. Mainly because whenever I try to get so much as a glimpse of her little teethers, she pinches her lips up tight and shakes her head.

She's doing well with it, but I do feel like the teething is wearing her out a bit. She fell asleep just like this beside me earlier today.

We're closing in on the last of the soccer games this week. Two of the kids finish up on Saturday and then we have a game on Monday and one on Tuesday and that's it! I've really loved watching them play. They're so into it. And I've loved watching them learn and improve. But, I'm ready to be done. I'm ready to wrap it up. Ready for the pool!

And the 50th anniversary thing is Friday night. So, that will be over before we know it, too.

Then we'll be back to our regularly scheduled programming.

Unless I'm a complete dork again and commit to organizing a block party or single-handedly running VBS.

Y'all pray for me, 'kay?


Deb said...

You are not a dork but I'm praying anyway!

Laura Lynn said...

Not a dork but it sounds like you need to form a committee of friends and delegate, girl!

Nessa Dee said...

You sound like you're busy...I can relate. I have a tendency to add too much to an already full schedule. My daughter decided to take a break from soccer this fall, so I am quite relieved.

Thanks so much for the kind comments. My husband and I have gotten quite a few laughs over the controversy we've ignited on AT. I just have to take everything with a grain of salt, and let people make their assumptions. :)